Being (half) Asian

Filed under: Society

No doubt I will discuss this topic again; however I believe that it’s a subject that I can continuously talk about and perhaps provide an alternate angle on; one that a Caucasian person would not be able to provide.

As I briefly talked about in my Turning Japanese post, Asian influence has seen a massive rise in the last couple of years and naturally attention from the culture will eventually lead to attention to the people. Now being half Asian means I should naturally like Asians and I do; just not the majority of them.

This may come as a surprise to a lot of you and trust me once I started to accept it, it surprised me too. The reason I don’t like most Asians is because of the way they think: I can’t stand how Asian societies function. I was born and raised in Asia (Thailand to be specific) but I have travelled all over and lived in several different counties in S.E Asia. So I am more than aware of how they think and I couldn’t stand it.

Many dark, Asian women hook up with foreigners because yes some may just want your money, a green card, etc… However some do it because the men in their own country view them as unattractive and treat them like shit

The teenage years were probably the worst, because I was only half Asian and my mother didn’t really have the stereotypical tooth pick figure (more hourglass), I ended up being much curvier than my oriental sisters. To make matters worse my bust was larger than the average Thai woman. So almost immediately I stood out (not in the good way) and this was about the same time my mother had enrolled me into a modelling agency. I don’t think she had any idea of the amount of psychological damage it would later cause me.

Looking back on it now, it all seems so stupid and incredibly superficial. I should have just given them the entire finger and walked out, but I didn’t. Back then the harsh criticism and rejection was taken to heart; in the end I genuinely believed I wasn’t an attractive person. I remember one agent told me that I wouldn’t stand a chance unless I dropped two dress sizes. I was sixteen years old and a natural size eight.

It disgusts me that society is obsessed with something so shallow.

Basically if you’re Asian, tanned and chubby, you’re fucked. You might as well move to a western country and marry an old fart who’s going to love you for who you are AND what you look like, because everyone back home sees you as the dark, fat one. Perhaps I’m exaggerating a little but believe me when I say; I’m not doing it by much.

This is why Asian girls are obsessed with being skinny and pale

Being pale in Asia makes you more desirable because it implies that you are well off and healthy. It connotes that you don’t need to slave away in the sun doing manual labour and that my western friends, is the harsh truth. Amusing isn’t it? Over here it’s the opposite: having a tan makes people here feel glowing and healthy.

Before I wrap this up I would also like to mention that Asian men piss me off too; most of them are so metro sexual you’d never believe they weren’t gay. They obsess about their appearance as much as the women, some of them are pretty and don’t they just know it. They think they’re so hot and that they can manipulate girls to act and look just how they want them to. I for one refuse to tolerate that kind of crap.

It should also be said that the ones that don’t check the mirror regularly or wear a hair band have strange superiority complexes. Asian society is very much a patriarchal one, it’s getting better but it’s still a BIG problem and the last thing I want is for some controlling shit head to tell me what I can or cannot do. So that’s why I couldn’t date an Asian man. Unless of course he was brought up far far away from Asia.